All I want for Christmas is...

It has been YEARS since I have been able to make a Christmas list. In fact, this year will be the Tucker Clan's first BIG Christmas. I don't know who's more excited...me or them!!! God has blessed us so much and I am eternally grateful! As I marvel at His goodness, I sat down to write out my Christmas list all the while thanking Him for how far He has brought us. I am humbled and quickly reminded of all the years that Jeremy and I could not buy for each other. I am looking so forward to surprising my husband's socks off this year! (No, I can't tell you what I am getting him yet.) But not only am I able to buy for him, we are able to buy for all 4 of the kids!

So without further ado, here is MY list...not that I will be getting all these things, but sometimes Jeremy needs options:

• Homedic Lumbar Massage Cushion w/heat
• Juicy Couture perfume
• Kathy Van Zealand purse
• A new hairbrush (I've used Jeremy's for years!)
• A Handheld mirror...I broke mine last month
• Peace and Quiet...oh, wait...Walmart may not have that...
• Satin Boutique "Bathing Belle" Shower Cap or comparable...see pic (I have one similar from 6 yrs ago...time for a new one.)
• A Symphony bar...best candy bar EVER!
• Any unique or funky shoe (sz 7)
• An alarm clock

That about wraps it up! Now, I'm ready to see what I get to UN-wrap! What's on your Christmas list?

Thanksgiving in New York!

New York was both amazing and exhausting! Here is a quick day-by-day rundown:

1. Wednesday, November 25th: Got up at 3am to head out to the airport where they ended up confiscating our toothpaste and Nutella. Javin was devastated. Flew in about noon and was escorted by the most beat up taxi you have ever seen. It looked like it had just come out of a junk yard! Of all the beautiful yellow taxi’s, we would get THAT one. We held on for dear life. He honked at every moving (and non-moving) thing! We finally got checked in to our hotel which was amazing. We stayed at the Embassy Suites in the Financial District adjacent to Ground Zero. Then it was off to find the subway so that we could head to FAO Schwartz. That place was a mad house but, the kids were lovin’ it! They even got their turn to play on “the piano”. Then it started raining, decided to head back, got slightly lost, found an organic grocery store that had Nutella and made it back late, wet and exhausted. A nice compliment to an ending day was the nightly manager’s reception offered by the hotel with complimentary snacks and drinks. Time for rest. My mom flew in about midnight. Back to sleep…

2. Parade Day!!! First, we went downstairs to enjoy the gourmet breakfast served daily at the hotel and included in our stay. The chocolate chip pancakes were delicious! Then it was off to seize the day. The Macy’s Thanksgiving Day Parade was a sight to behold. People were packed in like sardines, and Jeremy almost got in a fight…literally. Javin was hanging on to iron bars on a window while Kadi sat atop Jeremy’s shoulders to see. We were near the beginning of the parade route at 69th and Central Park. It was a perfect spot. We actually ended up ditching the crowd a bit later, backed up a few yards to one of the elevated townhouses and rested on their balcony with our hot chocolate. Much better! Jeremy felt compelled to buy the kids trumpets from a street vendor, and then it was off to Uncle Jody’s for Thanksgiving dinner. It was so great to see all of them!

3. Black Friday! I woke up at 6am to do some online shopping; then Jeremy and I went to Wall Street and I kissed the iconic, big bronzed bull! (Unless you are into securities and investments, you probably won’t find that very amusing.) Anyway, then we went to tour the Ground Zero memorial. It was an incredibly emotional experience, especially for Javin. To touch actual remnants of the plane and the towers was so surreal. It was hard to eat after that, but we managed. After enjoying some famous NY Pizza, we headed off to Times Square all in an effort to lighten the mood. Low and behold, as soon as we exit the subway is the three-story Toys R Us. The kids had already seen it and there was no turning back now. What in the world were we thinking heading in there on Black Friday?!? There are no words to describe! The kids stood in awe as they gawked at the Ferris Wheel inside. Kadi could not wait to ride it! After leaving there, we went to the M&M store and the Hershey store where Javin was in Reese heaven! On the way home, the kids played Jingle Bells on their trumpets and people on the streets joined in singing. It was precious! The sugar crash ended shortly after.

4. On Saturday, we decided to go to the U.S.S. Intrepid which is a WWII aircraft carrier. So neat and a must-see if you visit NYC! Check out their website: http://www.intrepidmuseum.org/. We were able to hang with the Trosclair’s again and catch up on some much needed family time! Uncle Jody took us to a nice little diner for a late lunch and some NY Cheesecake. Yum! Afterwards, we found a nice little playground near the hotel and the kids burned off what little energy they had left.

5. Sunday was our day to explore Battery Park and the Statue of Liberty. We took a nice walk along the Hudson, boarded the ferry and gazed in amazement as Lady Liberty grew closer. We could not gain access to the crown since it was sold out, but we did manage to walk up to the pedestal and observation deck. Lots of steps! On our way back, we passed Ellis Island and the kids took part in a street show in Battery Park. Now time for naps. Even after a long day, Jeremy and I ventured out for a stroll in Central Park and found a great Japanese express place called Teriyaki Boy. Excellent food at an excellent price. Then eventually, we stumbled onto 5th Avenue. Jeremy needed to take a leak, so we stopped in at Mr. Trump’s house. Ok, it was Trump Tower, but Donald does live in the penthouse of the tower. Most of the stores on 5th were closed since it was Sunday evening. Try back tomorrow. We did manage to get in a little shopping at H&M though. I love that store!

6. Ahhh, awesome day! Started off on 5th Avenue with a PURCHASE at the TIFFANY’S! I now sport a lovely silver bracelet. Wahoo! However, Kadi was not as fortunate and couldn’t understand why she couldn’t have any gold jewelry from there. Jeremy did find her a butterfly necklace for her wedding though. How sweet is that?!? He wants to carry on the tradition my dad started. Afterwards, we attended the “ROCKETTES” show at Radio City Music Hall. I am so glad we went. It was the most incredible thing to watch and very entertaining for all ages! Awesome production and a definite must see! Nap time again. Mom watched the kids while Jeremy and I went out for our 8 year anniversary. Can you guess where we went? Of course, the Empire State Building! What a lovely and romantic experience with an awesome view of the city lit up at night. We headed to dinner below at the Heartland Brewery. Just divine! Then we took a stroll through Macy’s. I had no idea it had 9 floors! Get this, even the store associates did not know which floor the men’s department was on! Biggest department store ever! Some of the escalators seemed original since they were made of old wood. Very neat…and rickety.

7. Departure day! We were actually ready to come home. There was so much more that we wanted to see and do, but it was impossible to fit everything in. NYC is massive! Next time, we hope to hit some Broadway shows.

So, that about wraps it up! I hope you feel like you came with us! Keep in mind that this was actually the “brief summary”. Also, this did not accurately depict the amount of walking that took place. We were sore for a week! Check out my facebook for pics! I will have them up soon!

Reasons To Be Thankful!

• Life is often so busy and so fast paced that we often forget to take time to remember the things that we are thankful for, namely people. As I sit back thinking about the past year, I am more than grateful for the following:
  
• I am first thankful for my family...all six of us. I enjoy each moment we have together and I love how our family has evolved. My husband is the best and most caring man on the planet. Javin and Kadi make my world go 'round and their unconditional love amazes me. And Brittany and Roman are the most grateful and unselfish teenagers that I have ever met, always willing to lend a hand whether it be with the dishes, the laundry or the kids. How did I get so lucky?

I am thankful that God has given the doctors wisdom with regards to my health this year. Despite the fact that I take 10-15 pills a day, I am glad that I can function and live life to its fullest!

I am thankful for provision. I could not ask for a better job or better bosses. They spoil me rotten! And I am soooo glad that Jeremy has a steady job that he loves working for a wonderful company with excellent health benefits. Praise the Lord on that one!

I am thankful for God and His FOG! Without the Favor of God, I don't know how so many things could have fallen into place so gracefully. He truly has our best interest at stake. Learning to trust Him completely has been a journey, but he has always proved faithful and gone above and beyond! Thank you, Jesus!

I am thankful for Pastor Mike and Debbie Gamble. Words cannot describe the amount of love and respect that I have for this couple. They are the real deal, encouraging, life-giving and completely dependable. I can trust them 100% which is huge for me.

I am thankful for our church and the people in it! Holla, Covenant McKinney!

I am thankful for my parents and my extended family. Always there, no matter what. Love endures all things and all situations. Always supportive.

I am thankful for the friendships that have begun to form. It's amazing what happens when you let the wall down.

There are many more, so maybe I will have to write a part 2! It is always good to reflect on the important things in life and be thankful for the things we so easily take for granted. (Thank you Jacqueline for making me appreciate my washer & dryer along with my dishwasher! It was great to get a missionary's perspective)

So, what are you thankful for?

Tucker Clan Update!

Wow! So much has happened in the last month…

1. Javin lost his first top tooth which makes him talk so cute. However, being the perfectionist that he is, not being able to speak and pronounce properly is driving him nuts. And with yet another top tooth about to fall out, this only adds to his frustration because he will now be missing all 4 front teeth soon. I guess he will be singing “All I want for Christmas is my 4 front teeth!”

2. The Tucker Clan has officially grown to six! Despite some quite disturbing circumstances last month, we were excited to welcome Brittany’s 17 year old brother, Roman to the family. Their mother, Melany, passed away unexpectedly, but God has still shown himself faithful to both of them and has showered them with favor and love. There have been so many instances, but I will share a few big ones:

*A complete stranger heard of the hardship, called in a favor from the execs at Southwest airlines and they were both given FREE airfare.
*Someone else donated a bunk bed in excellent condition and also threw in a dresser!
*Brittany’s work collected money from employees to assist with the financial stress of her having to miss a week of work.
*Counseling is being offered to both of them free of charge.
*Family and friends have sent gift cards, money and encouraging notes.
*We ran into what we thought would be some kinks in the custody battle, but God has gradually taken care of every detail one person at a time. Each of those have been a miracle in itself.
*Melany’s stuff in storage was due to be auctioned off and someone stepped up to cover the cost of $500, so that they could have access to the belongings.

Please continue to pray for them as they adjust. I am so proud of each of them and Javin and Kadi love them like crazy!

3. We were forced to have “the talk” with Javin. That proved to be quite interesting. Poor thing. He caught our dogs…ahem, cough, cough…in the act a few days ago. I thought he was in bed sleeping, but didn’t realize until later that he was standing in the doorway in shock while I tried to figure out what the heck was going on. Jeremy explained things like a champ and I was so proud of him. He pulled out Scripture and explained the beauty of the God-given gift. Then we royally threatened Javin about not telling Kadi about the details of “life”. We’ll see how long that lasts, I guess! (It seems that we may be expecting puppies in about 2 months…anyone interested?) AAaaargh! Needless to say, the 5 1/2 month old puppy will be scheduled for a fix ASAP!

4. I had a parent-teacher conference with Kadi’s K5 teacher. They have informed me that she is a little too bossy and likes to mother all of the kids. Her friends get annoyed, and she tells them that she is just trying to keep them out of trouble. Kadi thinks she is in charge. I guess there is no denying that she is my daughter! She is going to be a strong leader; watch out world!

5. God has answered one of my most precious prayers recently. A couple relationships that I had missed so dearly have finally been restored. I love how God can vindicate though I don’t exactly agree with His timing and procrastination on such issues!

So, to sum it all up. Life is good. Hectic and crazy busy, but I am completely happy. I even have a new bistro dining set (yet another blessing of God’s favor) that seats 6 people! God even knows the desires that seem so small to us, but mean the most. Now, we can all have family dinner, game night and great conversation. I love having a big family! Like my new dining set?!?

Kadi's Sister...and, no, that does not mean I'm pregnant!

Funniest thing ever! So, here is the prerequisite first just so you don't think that I am completely disconnected. Jeremy and I aren't normally the ones that bring our kids to children's church because we are blessed with some wonderful armor bearers and volunteers that take care of that for us while we lead worship, pre-service prayer, etc, etc. However, most of the time, I will pick them up though. The point is that I don't normally have a chance to get to know or chat with the children's church workers because we are so busy on Sundays and Wednesdays and they have multiple services with different workers that rotate each time.

Well this week, after youth worship, we went to the 5th and 6th grade class for a trial run with some of our teens to brainstorm and see about the possibility of also starting up a kid's worship team. When we were going through introductions, the children's church worker (whom I had seen before in passing) says, "Hey, you're Kadi's sister, right?" Preoccupied, I answer, "Yes, it's so nice to meet you." Her comment went completely in one ear and out the other. It wasn't until about 30 seconds later that I turned and said, "Did you say Kadi's SISTER?" She nodded and I laughed, "No, actually I'm her mother!" The shock on her face was hysterical! She thought I was a teenager as she waves her husband over in disbelief. She just about fell over when I told her that I was 28 and then introduced her to my husband who is 34! That completely made my day! Now if Javin would only leave me alone about my wrinkles, I'd be a happy camper! Anyone know of a good wrinkle cream?

So, anyway, now my goal is to make more of an effort to get to know the people that are teaching and blessing my kids every Sunday. Valuable lesson learned. If they don't know you're the parent, that's probably not a good sign. I love and appreciate those ministering in children's church so much...especially after being in there briefly yesterday. God has some great things in store for CovKids as his anointing is released over them, and I am excited to be able to see that unfold from a first-hand perspective now.

Do you know who is pouring into your kid's lives or do you just view them as babysitters for a couple hours? Let's get to know them. They have so much to impart! =0)

Elastigirl

Am I truly satisfied? A few days ago I started pondering contentment and complacency. As I began to seek truth, I believe I was able to get some pretty clear revelation. There is also a saying that states, "It is far better to want all that you have, than have all that you want." Why? Because Philippians 4:11 states, "Not that I speak in respect of want: for I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content." But sometimes I fear that we confuse contentment with complacency. We also know that "Godliness with contentment is great gain"(1Timothy 6:6). It is OK to be content with what we HAVE; but we should never become complacent with what we ARE. So, is it possible to be satisfied and still want more? Yes.
First, what exactly is Contentment? Glad you asked. Contentment:

• Is foremost a spiritual matter of satisfaction with God in every area of your life; TOTAL trust in God, selflessness.
• Brings glory to God not man.
• Is trust and confidence in His purpose for your life because you know that embracing change promotes growth and discipline.
• Is Happiness (“Happiness is self-contentedness.” - Aristotle)
• Is peace and rest in knowing that God is in control of everything.
• Is not only being content in WHO you are but a willingness to be stretched and groomed as well.
• Develops character.
• Cannot dwell with anger or self pity.
• Is understanding your physical circumstances to be God's opportunity to mold and shape you.

I really like this definition from dictionary.com:

• a state of mind in which one's desires are confined to his lot whatever it may be (1 Tim. 6:6; 2 Cor. 9:8). It is opposed to envy (James 3:16), avarice (Heb. 13:5), ambition (Prov. 13:10), anxiety (Matt. 6:25, 34), and repining (1 Cor. 10:10). It arises from the inward disposition, and is the offspring of humility, and of an intelligent consideration of the rectitude and benignity of divine providence (Ps. 96:1, 2; 145), the greatness of the divine promises (2 Pet. 1:4), and our own unworthiness (Gen. 32:10); as well as from the view the gospel opens up to us of rest and peace hereafter (Rom. 5:2).

Once we actually realize that our physical circumstances should be treated secondary to our spiritual necessities, i.e., "Seek ye first the Kingdom of God, and His Righteousness; and all these things [food, clothing, shelter] shall be added unto you" (Matthew 6:33), then it becomes immediately possible to be truly content. This also lets me know that contentment is an action. Notice it says "Seek". That is a verb, so it means that we have to do something to receive contentment which kind of almost seems like an oxymoron. I came across this secular blog for Leo Babauta from zenhabits.net and I loved his point of view: "Contentment isn’t a matter of being content with your situation in life and never trying to improve it. It’s a matter of being content with what you have — but realizing that as humans, we will always try to improve, no matter how happy we are. If we don’t, we have given up on life."

For me, this means that I am content in knowing that I am goal and detail-oriented and always striving for excellence. I know my strengths, weaknesses, frustrations and successes. I am confident about who I am in Christ, the call on my life for worship and the call to serve and support the Gamble's ministry in whatever capacity that may be. I am at peace being a mother, business woman and supportive wife. My point is that all of these things require an action, so if at any time I become complacent or lazy, I will lose my contentedness. Does that make sense?

I can't help but to think of Elastigirl from The Incredibles as a prime, yet humorous example. Hear me out. She is confident and content in who she is and her purpose, yet able to be flexible, stretched and used when necessary. Elastigirl has to exercise her power, fine tune it. If she decides to become complacent, then what good would she be? We also know that the Bible tells us that "to whom much is given, much more will be required." (Luke 12:48) We cannot just sit around because it's just not healthy and not what God intended. We have to be willing to step outside the box and out of our comfort zone.

So what is Complacency?

• Resistance to change which results in stagnation and stunted growth or lack thereof.
• Lack of motivation.
• Lack of trust in God because you fear failure, the future or not being in control.
• Brings glory to self by complete focus or trust in oneself, selfishness.
• Laziness.
• Unwillingness to step outside of your comfort zone in order to become who God wants you to be.
• It is like being a superhero with no intention of using or exercising those powers.

Again, according to dictionary.com, it states that complacency is a feeling of quiet pleasure or security, especially with oneself or one's merits, advantages while often unaware of some potential danger, defect, or the like; self-satisfaction or smug satisfaction with an existing situation, condition, etc.

Wow! This is so true. Complacency is completely destructive and counter productive. Just look at the following historic events:

1. The Great Flood in Genesis
2. The destruction of Sodom and Gomorrah
3. The story of Samson
4. Hurricane Katrina (New Orleans had been warned for decades about this potential, but were confident in their own "security" all the while unable to see the "potential danger" that was to materialize.)

Imagine if all of those people had not become complacent. Some might have actually listened to Noah and not been fish bait; some may have turn from their wickedness, and Lot's wife may not have been a table condiment. Samson wouldn't have let his guard down, and NOLA would have secured the levees...God warns us in Proverbs 1:32, "For the waywardness of the simple will kill them, and the complacency of fools will destroy them." He also sent a stern warning to the complacent women in Isaiah 32. Then in Revelation 3:14-22 speaking through the apostle John to the church in Laodicia, Turkey, He confronts them with their complacency as well. He says they are neither cold nor hot, but lukewarm. Complacency leads to indifference which leads to idleness. To stand for nothing is to stand against God. That is why it is so dangerous for us to become complacent, lazy.

So, recap: CONTENTMENT is an action and COMPLACENCY is not. Are you content or complacent?

URGENT! Please read! You can't afford not to!

At this current moment I can feel the Spirit of God so strongly that I am shaking and weeping in His presence. I cannot describe the sense of urgency that I am feeling right now. I am so deeply burdened for our nation and about the shift that is coming. I felt like I heard the Spirit say of the church, of the youth and of today's leaders, "The time is now; you must arise. The fate of this nation belongs to you."

If you are not aware, today is SEE YOU AT THE POLE. We must interceed for our nation. On this Friday, Muslims are calling for a Muslim Day of Prayer in Washington DC. They are calling for 50,000 Muslims to gather and pray on the DC Mall. http://www.islamoncapitolhill.com/ If this doesn't bring you to tears, I don't know what will. We are engaged in spiritual warfare. There is also another video about statistics regarding Muslims and how they are literally able to take over the world in the next 17-25+ years. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e0U5Kw57iv4

About an hour ago, I felt compelled to visit http://www.elijahlist.com/, a site which I have only been to twice in the last 3 years. Below is what was posted today. (Please read the intro and then listen to the audio link from the beginning until about minute 13.) What a confirmation!

• Introduction by Larry Randolph
  In 2005, I was visited by an Angel of the Lord who showed me a string of events that would unfold beginning in 2007 through the end of 2012. One of the most striking predictions was his proclamation that, "The economy of this nation will go down a long, dark hill." Among many other things, the angel also informed me that in the same year I saw the deaths of many Hollywood celebrities, it would signify the end of an era and the beginning of change in the nation. I shared these things in a few meetings, but felt that I should not yet release the details of the visitation on a national scale.
  Then in July of 2008, the Lord informed me that a "perfect storm" would hit the nation in the middle of September and that it would be the beginning of the economic collapse the angel revealed to me in 2005. Again, I was reluctant to draw national attention to the coming events and purposely restricted the prophetic word to a small number of conferences. Although the prediction came to pass around the 15th of September 2008, part of my reluctance to give the prophetic word was due to much of the negativity that is often associated with a number of prophetic ministries. As one called to encourage the Church prophetically, I tend to shy away from anything that sounds like "gloom and doom" and often wait for God to show me the redemptive value of what is happening.
  That being said, however, I now feel an urgency to sound the alarm that unprecedented events are approaching us on many levels. We are at the end of the "holding pattern" we have experienced this year and are about to enter another season of change and great shaking. In fact, there is a "super-shift" coming that is truly bittersweet and will ultimately reveal the best of times and the worst of times. In view of the sobering times we are approaching, I have decided to release a prophetic word that I recently delivered at Grace Center, my home church in Franklin, Tennessee.
  As you'll hear in the prophecy, the shift begins this September, continuing throughout October, and will gain both momentum and velocity by December 31st. Interestingly, the 31st is a "blue moon" night that is an astronomical rarity—thus the phrase "once in a blue moon."
  Also, a part of my decision to release the following prophecy is related to yet another encounter I had in August. Around the middle of the month, I had a vision of a 5.0 earthquake that would mark the beginning of a critical shift. I also saw a greater shaking that was to follow in the near future. The next day, I called my friend Bob Jones who confirmed that he was also feeling "a trembling" in the Earth. Several days after our conversation, there was a 5.0 earthquake in Alaska on August 19th, which confirmed to me the importance of the vision. (Reported on Fox News August 19, 2009: 5.0-Magnitude Earthquake Rattles Anchorage, Alaska.)
  And, if I am interpreting correctly what I feel and see, there is yet a seven-fold shaking of greater magnitude coming that will produce enormous and perhaps catastrophic disruptions on economic, political, geophysical, atmospheric, and spiritual levels.
  However, the good news is that God is unfailingly redemptive, no matter what events unfold in the world. According to the Prophet Isaiah, when darkness invades the Earth, the glory of God is certain to arise upon His people. Although we are entering uncertain and turbulent waters, remember that the challenges we face can affect us for good or for bad. When God shook the fountains of the deep in Noah's day, for example, the flood had both negative and positive implications for that generation. For those outside the ark it was devastating, but for those inside the ark it was liberating. So depending on your posture in Christ, the coming days can either be the best of times or the worst of times.
• I need you to LISTEN to this word rather than read it—for the URGENCY is that great!
  To LISTEN NOW to this most profound and sobering word by Larry Randolph click on http://www.elijahdownloads.com/files/randolph

Look Out Below!!!

For the month of September, our worship team is discussing Pride vs. Confidence and the importance of humility. We have all heard the Scripture that "pride comes before the fall", but how do we prevent that from happening? Did you know that pride is the most serious of the seven deadly sins? It is also the most difficult sin to recognize in our own lives. This is due to the fact that pride can skew our perceptions of reality. Pride deceives us and obscures the truth because of the humbling light that it would shed. See the contrast? Pride and truth are opposites. Pride deals with deception; humility deals with truth.

Here are a few more interesting differentiations between the two. Pride is a preoccupation with oneself. It is often a public display around self-centeredness in some form. Even the word "pride" is centered around the letter "i". Some of the most influential people in history have been brought down by pride. (Ahem...or music icons, cough, cough...Kanye West...) No, actually I'm referring to Adam & Eve, Cain, King Nebuchadnezzar, his son Belshazzar, King Sennacherib and Lucifer to name just a few. I found this part interesting; of the seven deadly sins, each one was associated with a specific demon. Get this, pride was assigned to Lucifer! Pride is an overestimation of one's ability or security, righteousness or self-worth.

True humility is submission to God and legitimate authority, recognition of virtues and talents of others-including those which surpass one's own, giving due honor. Humility is a sign of Godly strength, not weakness. It is about modesty, lacking pretense and not believing that you are superior to others. You can still have both confidence and humility. Confidence is a private matter. The trick is finding the balance. I believe that Queen Esther and King David are great examples of this.

Did you know that you can actually be prideful about being too humble? Give that a second to sink in. And most of us won't recognize pride until it's too late. By that point, someone is already screaming, "Look out below!" We have ALL dealt with pride, but the key is to crucify it before it crucifies us. It is good to have an accountability partner or trusted friend that will let you know without the sugar coating. Anyone can ask, "How am I doing?" But it requires humility to ask, "What can I change?"

Here are a few questions to keep ourselves in check:

1. How many times do the words "I" or "my" occur in a conversation? (Start with counting just in one sentence.)
2. Whose attention am I seeking and why? Where is my focus?
3. Am I judging, degrading or speaking down to others?
4. Am I boastful about my acclaimed humility?
5. Am I able to say the following phrases: "You are right" and "I am sorry". (Just gonna be a little transparent...that's a hard one for me!)
6. Do I have a pastor, friend or confidant that I can go to that does not have their own agenda at stake? Will they be honest enough to tell me the things that I don't want to hear? (This must be someone that you trust to speak the truth in love-words of encouragement and life, not death.)
7. Do I take ownership of my successes, abilities, talents or ideas? (Remember WHO gave those things to you in the first place, so all glory and credit belongs to HIM.)

Lastly, pray, pray, pray! Ask God with an open heart and be ready to listen with open ears. Proverbs is a great book to read on pride and humility. It gives so many practical guidelines to live by. Try one chapter per day if you haven't done so already. So much great stuff in there!

Scripture references:
Proverbs 15:33 "...before honor is humility."
Proverbs 16:18-19 "Pride goes before destruction, and a haughty spirit before a fall. It is better to be of a lowly spirit among the poor than to divide the spoil with the proud."

"Oh My G*d!"

Everyday, Javin is required to read for 20-30minutes from a book of his choosing. He can choose one from home or one from the library at (public) school. It's always more fun to read something that isn't yours. So, two days ago, he checked out a book at the school library and began reading it to me. Then he stopped and gave me a prerequisite. He said, "Mom, there is a bad word in here, but don't worry because I'm not going to say it." Of course, I yank the book out of his hand and say, "Where? Show me." I was gonna go have me a talk with the school, black out the word, call the teacher...you know, depending...

Javin said, "It says, 'Oh my God', but I'm just gonna say 'Oh my gosh' instead." I breathed a sigh of relief and just smiled like the proud mother that I am. I love the fact that he is so sensitive and innocent. I love the fact that he realizes the importance and consequences of taking the Lord's name in vain. I guess I just didn't expect it from my 7 year old. Funny thing is that I don't ever recall a specific conversation in which we had that discussion. Kids pick up everything whether we realize it or not. He has been watching our actions and words even when we may have forgotten.

His reaction really pricked my heart. If I were reading the same book, would I even have caught that? Would it have bothered me to the extent that it did Javin? Or have I become so numb to the world that it would have just slipped right by without a second thought? I mean this wasn't a blatant curse word or something that jumped off the page. I know that I am already very conscious about not saying the Lord's name in vain, but his conviction just made me that much more aware. "God, I want to be so sensitive to You that I don't miss the little things. I want to feel conviction like he felt with such sincerity in his voice. "

It is so important to guard our gates (mouth, eyes, ears). Don't let anything in that you don't want to come out. Out of a man's heart, so he speaks. Are you guarding your mouth? Does the way you talk change from home to work, school or church?

Oddly enough, I started a cussing cup at work. They pay me in chocolate! It works out great because they understand my convictions and I get the benefit! (Maybe a little out of context but it reminds me of the Scripture that says "The wealth of the sinner is stored up for the righteous!" Their wealth is my chocolate!) That's just a little Kellyology. =0)

How does that gum commercial go? "Dirty, mouth? Clean it up!"

Poop or Get Off the Pot!

I am writing this blog because it bugs me when people call themselves Christians, but have no idea what they are talking about. You see the question all over Facebook, medical documents, personal profiles, etc. "What is your religious preference?" Most of us answer with "Christian". We might have a general concept of what Chrisitanity is, but do we really know the privilege that comes with being a Christian and the responsibility of acting like a Christian?

I liken the indecisiveness of professing that you are a Christian, but then acting polar opposite to "Poop or get off the pot". Either make a decision to be a REAL and AUTHENTIC Christian or don't. It drives me nuts when Christianity seems to get diluted or when someone makes a half-hearted profession without understanding the full concept of what they think they believe. So let me give you my point of view.

Christianity is not just a religion; it is about a lifestyle and a relationship. God created us to love Him and have a personal relationship with Him through His son Jesus. (John 3:16, Eph 2:4-5) Christianity is accepting the fact that Jesus Christ came to earth to die for our sins so that we could receive salvation and spend eternity in heaven. Let's try not to make that sound cliche'. Do you have any idea what He went through before He was resurrected? (I will attach a video, but it is not for the faint of heart. See link below) Being a Christian is about being "Christ"-like. It is about setting an example, setting yourself apart. How else will anybody know that you are "different"? Believe it or not, being a Christian is NOT just about believing in God. Many people and religions believe in God...or a god.

According to Wikipedia, a Christian is "one who professes belief in Jesus Christ and lives a lifestyle based on the life and teachings of Jesus." In 2007, the US did a survey and found there to be 5 typical Christian categories:

• Active Christians: Committed to attending church, Bible reading and sharing their faith that salvation comes through Jesus Christ. Usually in church leadership. (relationship-driven)
• Professing Christians: Also committed to accepting Christ as Lord and Savior, but focus on personal relationships with God and Jesus more than attending church, Bible reading or sharing the faith. (my side note-we need to have the fellowship of believers and the spiritual covering of the church)
• Liturgical Christians: High level of spiritual activity (notice the difference, it does not mention salvation), mainly expressed by attending and recognizing the authority of the church and by serving in it or the community. (appears to be works driven)
• Private Christians: Believe in God and doing good things (fyi...does not mention Jesus), but not within a church context.
• Cultural Christians: Do not view Jesus as essential to salvation. They are the least likely to align their beliefs or practices with Biblical teachings or to attend church. They favor a universality theology that sees many ways to God. (Obviously, we know there is only one way and one God. Honestly, this category should not even be in the "Christian" category since Christianity is about belief in The Christ. Keep in mind this is from a secular source.)

And then we have Hypocrites. This is when you claim to be a Christian, but your fruit does not show it. You go to church and then act another way when you get home. This is when I say, "Poop or get off the pot". Being a Christian is serious business. (No pun intended) It is better to be hot or cold than to be lukewarm. Would you like the Scripture reference for that?

So what type of Christian are you? I'm striving for "Active". What does Christianity mean to you? Here are a few responses:

• Matt Petroski -"Stripping away all the junk you think is you, but isn't"
• Bro. Rod -"The Love, Life and Laughter of Jesus"
• Elsie Spingath -"Knowing God, receiving His love and mercy through Jesus and acting in that love"
• Penny Bordelon -"Freedom"
• Johanna Triche -"Being like Christ"
• Van Bordelon -"To give of yourself freely and watch the impact that has on others"
• Courtney Sessions -"Accepting Jesus as your Savior and devoting your life to being a symbol to others of what Jesus is"
  Ronny Michel -"God pouring out all He is on all I'm not"
• Kim McGee -"Seeking out God and having a relationship"
• Rudy McGee -"Being like Christ"
• Staci Ojeda -"Being a reflection of Jesus"
• Rory Warren -"A relationship with God"

It is interesting to see everybody's different interpretations and point of views. So, back to the question: What is your religious preference? Now you can make an educated decision. Poop or get off the pot.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yzat9dx6v8k

The Music of Your Life

I heard Pastor Gamble preach a message a few times on different styles of music and their associations. It was the first part of his THINK.BE.DO series. For example:
Rock 'n Roll invokes attitude
Country music tells a story
HipHop gives (false) street credibility
Jazz is about improv
And the list goes on...

Well, it really did get me to ponder a number of things. It is not to say that listening to other styles is a bad thing, it is just important to understand what you are exposed to, the associations behind them and what affect they can have on you. I have found that music can influence my moods which, inevitably, I choose. If you have been depressed, what type of music are you listening to? I found that listening to something contrary to how I'm feeling is a great way to change how I'm feeling. In the same regard, it can also enhance how I'm feeling. Either way, it is a conscious choice.

When I am depressed or angy, I try to listen to upbeat, victory-declaring praise songs. When I'm anxious, I like to listen to something soothing and peaceful like jazz. When I can't see the light at the end of the tunnel and I wonder where God has gone, I listen to worship songs that offer thanksgiving. If I am in a fun mood, maybe I'll even listen to a little Elvis! (not a word, Jeremy.) Sometimes, I even listen to country...though not something I like to admit either!

But this is where I started thinking...Basically, my attitude is a melody; my thoughts are a melody; my actions are a melody...all influenced by something whether it be positive or negative. All of these things make up my life's song. So what am I singing? What message am I sending to everyone? How is my song affecting someone else that might be listening? Do I need to "put another record on"?

I also posted the following question on Facebook: If your life were a song, what tune would it be playing? For mine, I ended coming up with a medley because I couldn't pick just one. It would start with Holy Visitation (Rita Springer's version) because I can identify with the tagline at the end, and this song also references the urgency I feel for today's generation. Battlecry is the second...see my first post and you'll understand why. Shout Unto God is the third because I have seen Satan defeated over my life and have found victory that I am able to walk in daily. This is not to sound super-spiritual, it is just where I'm at right now. I guarantee that three years ago, I was singing a different song...probably a much more depressing one that would have been concert length!

So here are a few of the responses that I got. I think it is interesting food for thought. Each show where we were at given one point or another.
*Ronny Michel: The Warrior is a Child by Twila Paris. (While fighting cancer, that was the song her heart sang, and 16 years and many battles later, it is still the song of her heart.)
*Rudy McGee and Angie Stocking both chose: Stand in the Rain by Superchick
*Stacy Ojeda: Spilled Out and Broken

So what is the melody of your life song?

James Cohen McGee

Finally, a baby McGee! Last night we all welcomed James Cohen McGee into the world...most of us via Facebook. Thank God for technology. I felt like I was right there with them and didn't miss a beat. You would never have known I was 8 hours away! Cohen, born on August 11th at 12:13am, weighed in at 6lbs. 4oz. and was 20" long.

I thought I was going to jump out of my skin when my brother called yesterday evening and said, "It's game time!" Wow, my little brother was going to be a daddy. I cannot tell you how old that made me feel! I was so excited! Then I realized that my Dad was probably going to be speeding like a mad man to get there from Lake Charles/Baton Rouge! Of course, I called him about 5+ times to make sure that he was being safe. I don't even want to know how fast he was going. I'm glad he didn't have time to stop and get the Porsche!

Well, he made it safely, and all the men wore their Saints jerseys for "game day" complete with one for Cohen. We all eagerly waited for Matt to post the latest update on Facebook or receive the latest text. Man, how times have changed! He didn't even have to have a phone tree set up or anything!

Then came the updates: Game time, delay of game, end zone, 1st and goal, time out, 2nd yard line, touchdown! Praise God for a smooth delivery and a healthy baby!

James: meaning "supplanter"
Cohen: meaning "priest, priestly"; "brave and gallant"; "the direct male descendant of the Biblical Aaron, brother of Moses"

Makes me want to have another one! Just kidding! Almost...maybe...good thing I'm fixed!

Time for a Garage Sale?

I am having a Garage Sale tomorrow. I love and hate so many aspects of it. I love the fact that I get to go through every room, every closet, every drawer and clean out the junk. Throw some stuff out, find stuff I forgot I had, try to find a place for the stuff I want to keep and garage sale the rest. My house looks like it was ransacked by a hurricane! (Well, maybe a 5 and 6 year old...)

Then comes the part I hate. Reorganizing everything, cleaning up everything that is strewn across the floor, changing up the scenery and trying to declutter. It's funny how you accumulate so much so often. Lots of items hold sentimental value while others you can't even remember why you ever liked that, wore that or hung that.

Some of the bittersweet items I came across were my drapes from my home in Charlotte, from our "living" room. It brought back so many great memories. One specific was our LDG (Life Development Group) from Freedom House. Our living room was always packed out with great people and great testimonies. These drapes have heard many of the trials and prayer requests that all of us encountered. These drapes have seen housemates come and go and been with us through the changing seasons in our life. They have served their purpose and now it's time for them to move on. Yet, it is so hard for me to let them go. They are just drapes for crying out loud!!!

In a strange way, this garage sale has caused me to reflect on my life and not just the "things" in my life. Do I have any "clutter" in my life that shouldn't be there? Is the "clutter" covering up any hidden talents that I didn't know existed? Do I have any hurts that have been tucked away for so long that I forgot they were there? What "items" need to be put away and what needs to be dusted off? The last few weeks, I have definitely been finding out! Be careful when you ask because you are likely to get an answer!

Our lives go through so many seasons and transitions that sometimes it is beneficial to stop and reflect, sweep out the dust and reorganize. Most of the time you have to plow through the mess, the uncomfort and the uneasiness before you can see the big picture again.

But I love it when the Garage Sale is over! Things begin to settle again and there is a fresh new peace both in my life and in my home. Aaahhh...

Phil 4:7 ~ And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

A Life of Overflow

When I was thinking today and counting our many blessings, I came across some notes that I took during one of Bro Jesse Duplantis' meetings. I remember when things were really rough for us a few years ago, and I would revisit these notes often. At one point it seemed that these ideas were far fetched, but I claimed them anyway. Now they seem much more like a possible reality. I am so excited about where God is taking us, including our finances which is something many don't like to talk about. God wants us to be blessed, so that we can be a blessing to others. Money is a gift from God; we just have to be careful not to let it become our god. I would like to share with you some of his insight in regards to "A Life of Overflow":

• Never allow dangers or impossibilities to discourage you.


• Unexpected blessings should be the norm for believers.


• We are partakers of divine sufficiency.


• Blessings used rightly bring other and larger blessings.


• Refuse to bow to the pressure of time and people.


• Our lifestyle is not to settle for less than God's best.


• A life of overflow is not a fantasy based life; it is a reality based goal for the believer.


• Whatever affects your focus, affects your faith. Whatever affects your faith, affects your harvest.

Thank you, Lord! I receive it!

Kadi's First Tooth

Kadi lost her first tooth last night. I walked in the door from work, and I could hear her crying in my bedroom. I found her sitting in front of my mirror with a pile of kleenex, probably 20 or so. When asked what was wrong, she said that she was so nervous (and scared) about her tooth and just wanted it out. She said her tooth was too slippery and her tears were making it worse. I tried to have her let me touch it, but no way! Not if I wanted to keep my fingers. Finally, I was able to coax her through it: push it forward, twist to the left, now the right and pull. It worked!!! Poor thing, she was so stressed about it.
Do you remember the emotions that you felt when you lost your first tooth? It all came rushing back, the anxiety, the happiness, the nervousness. However, I don't remember mine being as traumatic. When that tooth came out, I had never seen her so relieved in my life. I felt so bad for her, but I was really trying not to laugh because it was so pitiful.
Well, nighttime came and it was time to put her tooth under her pillow for the tooth fairy to come, yet still knowing all along it was me. She wanted to stay up late; I fell asleep. Suddenly, at 6:30am I jumped out of bed in a panic. I had forgotten to leave her money. I bolted (somewhat quietly) in her room, stuck a $1.50 under the pillow and quickly sneaked back out. She woke up about 10 minutes later. Oh, thank the Lord. I would have felt terrible. Needless to say, I suck as a tooth fairy.

FIRE!!! Wake up!

Wow, where do I begin? My God is so amazing and definitely not in the cliche' sense. He has been doing some incredible things at McKinney. The presence, the miracles, the testimonies and the prophetic are becoming an expectation. And when you expect and prepare the way, God WILL deliver. Over the last month, McKinney has been ignited with the fire of God. There has been restoration in the lives of so many people, and it's spreading! God is providing us with tangible evidence of His existence during pivotal points in our lives. We are going to be able to look back and remember! We will not be shaken by the things of this world and our experience will leave no room to doubt Him in the future.
This past Wednesday night, Pastor Kevin gave me a prophecy stating that I would be like Xena, the Warrior Princess in this great battle. And that is exactly what I've been feeling like lately in my prayer life and the direction of my worship. Then on Sunday, Pastor Michael Gamble prophesied the exact same thing over me and I just started laughing at the confirmation. A WARRIOR PRINCESS...wow, who'da thunk? Well, apparently, God gave my parents a little divine inspiration as well. Do you know what "Kelly" means? It means "warrior, aggressive, defender". And get this! "Anne" means "grace and favor, a name of "ROYALTY". See the connection? How awesome is that! What does your name mean? Step up and take your place!
We are absolutely in a war for our Lord. And we absolutely have to take a stand for our Christianity. Christianity is not a luxury; it is a necessity that we must fight for. It is going to take more than just lazy complacent Christians to make a difference in today's day in age. We need to be prepping ourselves daily, arming ourselves with the proper weapons for battle. What is going to happen if you go into spiritual warfare naked? Do you really want to know? The enemy is roaming...
This generation is looking for something real, something different, something fresh. I believe that there is a prophetic move that has already begun to sweep this nation. I am hearing reports from the east coast, the northwest and the gulf coast that God is moving and signs and wonders are following. But this "movement" can only continue if you get up and MOVE! That's why it's called a movement!
I am ready to be engulfed by HIS undeniable and unquenchable FIRE! Are you?

Recent songs on my heart:
HOLY VISITATION
BATTLECRY
SPEAKING LOUDER THAN BEFORE
HOSANNA IN THE HIGHEST

Let's get this party started!