Deliberation

Friday, June 9th-The jury is still out...literally. It's 1pm and I decided to go to work today instead of the courthouse. The encouragement from everyone checking in on us this morning is overwhelming and much appreciated. My mind is racing and my feet are antsy, yet my heart is still at peace.

Playing the waiting game coupled with the unknown is quite a challenge for my personality. I've said many times I like to know the plan. I don't know the plan. I don't even know what the jury is thinking at this point. Nothing. Nada. Am I really going to trust God with the outcome? What if it comes back as "not-guilty?" Am I ready to lay it down at his feet? Eeek. I honestly don't know. I hope so, but I'm hoping more for victory. Absolute justice. That would be so much easier to deal with.

I'm being forced to have faith and forced to have patience. Story of my life. Ugh. So, I've consciously decided to worship through it. The song I have on repeat today is "On the Throne" by Desperation Band (feat. Kari Jobe). Click here to give it a listen!

Lyrics:

I will walk through the fire
Walk through the darkest night
I will walk through the flood
I won't be overcome, I won't be overcome

I will walk through the trial
Walk through the valley of fear
I will walk through the storm
I won't be overcome, I won't be overcome

For the Lord is
He is able, He is faithful
Higher than the mountains that I face
Every season, I will press on
For God alone, is on the throne

I will walk in Your promise
Walk in Your victory
I will walk in Your power
I won't be overcome, I won't be overcome

On the throne
Glorious, victorious
Sovereign over all

On the throne
Infinite, magnificent
Reigning over all